['Walk out, this is a trap', his brain had seen people act like that countless times and it had always been a way to make him lower his guard. But this was Nepione and this was something he didn't expect from her- and to which he didn't know how to answer. If he just... let her go when she was ready to leave, playing the cool silent guy could have been an option but no. Now he was dealing with actual feelings and while he didn't want to recognize it with himself, he knew what it was like to feel like nothing.
He paused, raised one hand in front of her and tried to find the right words. He was not going to be too kind, it just wasn't in his blood, but he couldn't just let things slide like that, right? He could feel her anxiety, see the tremor in her hand, he wished he wasn't as perceptive as nature made him sometimes.]
That. Is not. What. I said.
[How to continue? She was digging a hole for herself without his help and who even knew how long she harbored those feelings- since the nautilus went down? Did she have plenty of insecurities even before?]
Stop thinking like this. I don't know how to handle it. But- [He glanced down, to the right, a direction that usually meant someone was collecting his thoughts and memories, elaborating them, not fabricating lies.] Just imagine this... without you. There would be a whole bunch of nothing left to protect at the Last Light Inn, because when the fist attacked you were there. And I guess there would have been no one to stop Lae'Zel and Shadowheart from killing each other. To convince us not to kill Karlach from a distance but hear her words out. And let's not mention the nothing we would have found back in the grove- because you know if it had been up to me and Lae'Zel we would have been with the Goblins. Easier. Quicker. More convenient.
Do you realize how many people you saved along the way? And Gods I don't like to play hero, but here I am, running around and playing my part. Just a tiefling, you say, but you're literally keeping this group glued together. Even if we don't need a mom.
[He wanted to throw in a 'as much as I hate Halsin' right after the 'group' part, but managed to hold it back. This... exchange made sense, if he stopped to think about it. They needed their leader not to fall apart and he was ready to give the motivational speech that was required- even if he didn't know where to begin with it.]
You are doing one hell of a good job at keeping us alive. That being said- you don't have to take everyone's problems on your back alone. That is something you really have to work on.
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Date: 2023-12-16 01:10 pm (UTC)He paused, raised one hand in front of her and tried to find the right words. He was not going to be too kind, it just wasn't in his blood, but he couldn't just let things slide like that, right? He could feel her anxiety, see the tremor in her hand, he wished he wasn't as perceptive as nature made him sometimes.]
That. Is not. What. I said.
[How to continue? She was digging a hole for herself without his help and who even knew how long she harbored those feelings- since the nautilus went down? Did she have plenty of insecurities even before?]
Stop thinking like this. I don't know how to handle it. But- [He glanced down, to the right, a direction that usually meant someone was collecting his thoughts and memories, elaborating them, not fabricating lies.] Just imagine this... without you. There would be a whole bunch of nothing left to protect at the Last Light Inn, because when the fist attacked you were there. And I guess there would have been no one to stop Lae'Zel and Shadowheart from killing each other. To convince us not to kill Karlach from a distance but hear her words out. And let's not mention the nothing we would have found back in the grove- because you know if it had been up to me and Lae'Zel we would have been with the Goblins. Easier. Quicker. More convenient.
Do you realize how many people you saved along the way? And Gods I don't like to play hero, but here I am, running around and playing my part. Just a tiefling, you say, but you're literally keeping this group glued together. Even if we don't need a mom.
[He wanted to throw in a 'as much as I hate Halsin' right after the 'group' part, but managed to hold it back. This... exchange made sense, if he stopped to think about it. They needed their leader not to fall apart and he was ready to give the motivational speech that was required- even if he didn't know where to begin with it.]
You are doing one hell of a good job at keeping us alive. That being said- you don't have to take everyone's problems on your back alone. That is something you really have to work on.