[He would have remarked it even more if he knew, because this kind of conversation was not something he felt ready to face. It was almost scarier than dealing with his own scar and Cazador related issues. While the vampire had a tongue of gold himself when he had to lie, this was not something he could handle smoothly. Stupid feelings, stupid unnecessary things that were quite literally holding him down.
He wanted to believe her increased heartbeat was out of fear, that would have been much easier to handle, but no. Her hand moved up against his glove, sending involuntary shivers down his spine, and then the words came.
A month ago he would have rejoiced in a plan well executed, that was he wanted to begin with, but now he didn't know how to proceed. Turning her down would have been too harsh, she deserved more than that and he didn't want to touch her self esteem, accepting her feelings- it was not an option, it was too dangerous for both of them and it stopped being a possible choice the moment he realized Nepione wasn't just a person he wanted to use as a wall between himself and his former master. He took his time to think about it, mindlessly turning his hand to intertwine his fingers with hers. There was no one listening, unless the druid was somewhat awake, but the man's breaths were too regular to be e deception, so maybe... he could try to be honest? At least in part?]
That... I... you need to search elsewhere. [Oh, great, so much for letting her down gracefully when it wasn't his intention to hurt him.] Anyone who gets seriously involved with me ends in a terrible way. It happened too many times to be a coincidence and you deserve better than that. I really mean it, Nepione, this- no. Just no.
[He couldn't even look at her in the face when she shifted her position, he couldn't... even think of getting closer if she was inviting him to feed, nor to take any movement that would get them closer. This was as open as he could be about his past experience, as delicate as he could be in turning her down and as direct as he managed to be in letting her know it wasn't her nature as a Tiefling or anything she did that made things impossible between them. Hell, he didn't even say he personally didn't want to be with her, because it was so not true.
But it was back to lies and deception as he turned his hand to fully caress her neck for a moment before moving it to her cheek instead.]
I'm not really hungry... maybe another time.
[He didn't want to risk getting even more attached to her than he already was.]
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He wanted to believe her increased heartbeat was out of fear, that would have been much easier to handle, but no. Her hand moved up against his glove, sending involuntary shivers down his spine, and then the words came.
A month ago he would have rejoiced in a plan well executed, that was he wanted to begin with, but now he didn't know how to proceed. Turning her down would have been too harsh, she deserved more than that and he didn't want to touch her self esteem, accepting her feelings- it was not an option, it was too dangerous for both of them and it stopped being a possible choice the moment he realized Nepione wasn't just a person he wanted to use as a wall between himself and his former master. He took his time to think about it, mindlessly turning his hand to intertwine his fingers with hers. There was no one listening, unless the druid was somewhat awake, but the man's breaths were too regular to be e deception, so maybe... he could try to be honest? At least in part?]
That... I... you need to search elsewhere. [Oh, great, so much for letting her down gracefully when it wasn't his intention to hurt him.] Anyone who gets seriously involved with me ends in a terrible way. It happened too many times to be a coincidence and you deserve better than that. I really mean it, Nepione, this- no. Just no.
[He couldn't even look at her in the face when she shifted her position, he couldn't... even think of getting closer if she was inviting him to feed, nor to take any movement that would get them closer. This was as open as he could be about his past experience, as delicate as he could be in turning her down and as direct as he managed to be in letting her know it wasn't her nature as a Tiefling or anything she did that made things impossible between them. Hell, he didn't even say he personally didn't want to be with her, because it was so not true.
But it was back to lies and deception as he turned his hand to fully caress her neck for a moment before moving it to her cheek instead.]
I'm not really hungry... maybe another time.
[He didn't want to risk getting even more attached to her than he already was.]